For about 10 years, I have suffered from what many may see as an irrational trepidation towards knees. I don’t like them. I don’t like looking at them, I don’t like talking about them and I sure as hell don’t like touching them. If anyone gets within 5 feet of my knees, I start cringing and immediately tense up, followed shortly by a light sweat. My instincts demand that my knee bend, often putting me in the standing ball or fetal position depending if I’m standing or sitting during the attack. This anxiety towards knees started back in high school when I went to a general physician because I was experiencing pain in my knee when playing basketball. I’ll spare you the details, but needless to say, I walked out of there terrified and emotionally scared from the way he handled my knee.
It is partially because of this fear that I am now in quite a predicament. With my recent increase in running mileage, my oh-so-familiar knee pains have flared up again, but this time it’s more persistent. My right knee will allow me to run about 4 miles before completely giving up. It starts to feel like it’s just going to buckle and if I try to run through it, I get shooting pain all around the knee. Not good.
The awesome part about this past Saturday’s run was that we did a large 8 mile loop, so when my knee decided it was done, I couldn’t have possibly been further away from my car (note: see map below for visual). So, I did what any respectable 26-year-old would do: called Mom to come pick me up. I flagged down a stranger filling up his gas tank and asked to borrow a cell phone. After curiously looking me over and cringing at my overly-sweaty, beet red face, he reluctantly handed me his cell phone. After several rings, I was almost worried the ‘rents were either not home or where screening their calls and ignoring the unfamiliar number. Thankfully though, Mom answered and 5 minutes later Dad was there to rescue me in his shiny black Buick. (side note: I would have called the hubs, but he was about 15 min. away, whereas I was practically down the street from my parents’ house. A girl can only sit on the corner for so long before passersby begin to speculate…)
I haven’t gone on a run since Saturday, optimistically (or stupidly) hoping that my knee will heal itself with some good old fashion rest and TLC, but I just don’t think I have enough time to give it the proper amount of rest it truly needs. My ½ marathon is in 4 weeks and I’m already 2 weeks off on my training schedule. I’m starting to have flash backs about the tiny, dark, dark room with the bad, bad man.
Despite advice, stretching tips and leg taping by my pseudo physical therapist, Danielle, (clarification: she’s a real PT, just not my PT) I think I may have to make a trip back to the dreaded doctor. Please just don’t mock me when I make my husband come with me and hold my hand.